10 of Swords: Ruin

This is significant.

The image is from a Tarot website which I sometimes click on... daily personalized Tarot readings. Most of the time, I take it with a grain of salt. But today, seeing the words "10 of Swords: Ruin", I immediately clicked opened a different page. Yes, I know ruin is pretty much around the corner... and matters seem even worse when Tarot tells you so, too.

But I went back, and read this:

'Are you being the Martyr? How long do you have to make yourself suffer? Your thoughts are killing you. Trust me, coming from a Gemini, this is a difficult one to see our own self-doing in. It's sometimes difficult to see the humor in this card because of it's apparent doom and extremity. This is a time to let go, let it go.'

And here are bits and pieces from the other interpretations:

--- This is the Sun in the Air sign Gemini, it is an extreme fear of ruin.This is too much energy (Sun) about two issues or areas of the querents life (Gemini) which leads to conflict and fear. This is the insane mind that is paralyzed beyond being paralyzed. It has killed the heart and all thats left is despair.

This damaging process has been going on for a long time and has finally reached the lowest point it can go. A negative state of mind has reworked doubt so much that farther development is not possible. The mind begins to consciously realize that things cant get any worse. Rock bottom has been hit. At this point the mind copes with a dire sense of mania (or even insanity) and a resignment to this fate. However, how could anything ever really be that bad? And this begins re-evaluation and a questioning of the reality of the situation.

--- Sun in Libra.Great illusion hold you back! This illusion is bring ruin into life.Mental thoughts that destroy.Being terrified of an illusion.Mental clarity will overcome this bardo state.

This speaks to me, oh it does.